About eleven days ago I embarked on a new journey with my hearing. I am upgrading my hearing aids to a new generation of device, and I am still in the middle of the shadow, in the darkness where I am grasping at straws. I have yet to really gel with these new ears. I am suspicious, doubtful, depressed. I cancelled lessons, took a few days off work. I am now in the darkest moments, when I'm rewriting my brain to learn how to use the new hearing aids. Yet I am still hopeful that I can reach the other side.
Some tunes keeping me company
Yolanda and reminosuke81 plays Jean Sibelius Duo for Violin and Viola
Elgar's Nimrod 'Lux Aeterna' choral arrangement https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwdeqVmXlHk
L's Something to Shout About from Betty Boop, the musical. L is a shining light in the darkness.
Earlier this year I had started a draft about my thoughts about Beethoven's Heiligenstadt Testament. I didn't get very far in the draft.
I think this is mine.
And hear comes the sun (har har)
My audiologist and I finally adjusted the music program to remove the feedback management system. The system was misinterpreting violin sounds as feedback, and started fluctuating the sound in order to break up the faux-feedback (sounds like warbling/fluttering).
With that feature disabled, I can finally start the real job of getting used to them. They do sound different, no doubt about it, but it's a good different.
All in all, it took about 14 days to get them back to a baseline from which I can rebuild and start to re-develop my sense of hearing/technique toward the fiddle, hardanger fiddle, and vocal tone production.
The hard part starts here.